The morning of departure started off with 3 hours of sleep and a 7 mile run @ 4:30 AM with my sole sisters Bonnie and Amy. What a blessing to begin the day running and reveling in the friendships of sisters in Christ. Similar to my days ahead (except the running) but the sharing of love and motherhood with the women of Kenya. What does God have in store for me? I continue to ask. Will I be able to rise to challenges ahead and how will I handle the heartaches I will encounter?
My biggest prayer has been “God, break my heart for what breaks yours. Open my eyes so that I may see, feel and touch you fully, no matter how painful that may be.” As I now get closer to that journey I question if I asked God the right thing. I know He will show me what HE NEEDS me to see. With surrender comes responsibility and only with His grace and love can I handle what is ahead.
I want to be broken. I want Him to be able to use me. I don’t want to doubt that wherever He wants to take me will be best. He’s never failed me when I allow Him to lead. And the freedom I feel being fully surrendered in His arms is amazing.
I can question everything or I can let it all rest in the care of my Lord and Savior who says “give all your cares to me.” For I WILL be weary and heavy burdened, but He promises me rest...In His arms...Couldn’t think of a better place to be.
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